EVALUATION

Being part of the ensemble was strange as I really didn't understand as to why I was part of it. All that aside I feel that the performers did an excellent job considering we didn't understand and the piece was finalized twenty minutes before our audience entered. I think had the bond between actor and director been stronger we would have had a much stronger performance.
I also feel that had the directors not taken on as much as they had we would have had a solid piece much earlier and would have been able to rehears and understand more.

Two days before the show and I am no longer in the Muslim scenes. Nick has decided that it dosn't make any sense for me to be in both so just like that I'm cut.

Isnt this great, so far my daughter kills my sister and now I'm a spider. if im honest I really don't understand whats going on. the group and I are all as confused as one another but when we attempt to ask our directors we are shouted at for not listening. unfortunately they fail to realise the problem isn't out listening skills its their explanatory skills that are lacking.

ironically, aswell as being Natalies mum I am also Naurias sister. we are to pray while she disrespects us as she is rebelling. in theory i do nothing but repeat actions already choreographed and any ideas i put forward about the staging and Naurias actions are being rudely dismissed for the directors own ideas.
unfortunately I am struggling to feel passionate about something I haven't helped create.

The new idea revolves around five major characters.

1. A tramp
2. A teacher
3. A ghetto girl
4. A tv presenter/ news anchor
5. A muslim

their stories project how they refuse to conform to society.

we have decided that Natalie is the ghetto girl, Jo is the tramp, jay is the tv guy, Zee is the teacher and Nauria is the muslim.

I have been given the role of Natalies mum. we are to create a scene that shows she is bad and capable of killing someone. apparently she will be killing Naurias character for a reason we havent been told yet. we have been told she is to ask for money, to be rude and that I am meant to be a mum who tries hard but is hopeless. I found it hard to create something that in theaory Lloyd and Amy have already created for us. all we have to do is put words to it. so far i have had little if any input into the piece and time is running out.

today we continued developing our soldier scene. it was still open to adjustment but we had a solid structure for a scene. HOWEVER at the end of our session we were told that any previous material created is cut to make way for a new idea the directors had come up with, without any input from us.

I'm not at all happy that the work we had put so much effort and attention too has been cut without any consideration to the group and without discussing with us how OUR group devised work is going to go. I generally feel excluded from any major decision making in the piece.

with Siobhan we devised a piece showing our conformity. it started with a game of wink murder then getting into a line and growing up through the ages. we showed how catchy advert jingles persuade us to do things by physically being unable to stop shouting them.

I feel we have a lot of material we ca use in the final piece and am really excited to perform.